I was in a Vinyasa class a few days ago in Nicaragua, at Zen Yoga Nicaragua. The beautiful owner of the studio, Vanessa, was teaching the class. She asked us to sit in Child’s pose, but with our knees together. She said, it was because all day long we breathe in with our front body, we move with our front body, we are focused on our front body. This time in this pose, she wants us to breath from our back body, feel our back body, feel the back of our heart expanding and moving.
I usually hate being in Child’s pose with my knees together as I find my breath to be constricted. My belly gets in the way of me breathing properly, or that is what I thought until now.
In actuality, I do not hate Child’s pose because my breath gets constricted.
I hate it because it forces me to breath with my back body and that is extremely emotional for me for some reason. I feel weepy when I do anything in yoga with my back engaged. Especially the middle of my back. I wanted to stop with the breathing. I wanted to bring my knees apart so I wouldn’t feel anymore. I wanted to feel no more.
I knew then that was a Samskara there, a reason for my weepiness. I am holding something in. I am holding on to some tension or emotion or situation. I had to explore it further, and for that, I had to keep on breathing through my back body until I let it all out. I spoke to Vanessa after class about it, but she had never really heard of this before. She thanked me for sharing and told me to keep on doing this pose until I release whatever is stuck in my body. I resolved to do so. I still haven’t figured out what I am holding on to, but I need to keep on engaging my middle back so I can keep on feeling those painful emotions and let go of them.
I have had a similar experience with the pose, Frog. It is a pose that opens up your deep groin and inner thigh muscles. But when I mentioned the same to Vanessa, she knew instantly what the reason for my weepiness with Frog would be. Frog pose really brings out the Root Chakra in your body. It focuses on that chakra that is related to security. I have always had an issue with feeling secure. I have an issue with being secure, financially, emotionally, physically, and psychologically. I have an issue with the fact that I exist. All of this contributes to there being a lot of pain and blockage in my root chakra. Slowly, I am working on that one, by rooting myself, doing a lot of grounding exercises in yoga and in life, making myself more financially secure, and telling myself daily, that it is a good thing for the world that I exist. I should exist. The world is a better place because I exist.
I find that no matter how much yoga I do, I still find new emotions and situations cropping up every day due to my yoga practice. It is a never-ending, joyful practice that gives me more and more. I just have to be willing to listen. And sometimes that is half the battle. It is hard to deal with all of these situations that come up. Sometimes I just want to ignore them and not change. I just want to be lazy and unchanging. But the lessons do not stop just because you are being ignorant. It is like a woodpecker knocking on wood – the lessons keep on knocking on your mind over and over again, trying to gain entry and teach you something new about yourself.
– This post has been published in Puerto Jimenez, Costa Rica.
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